Elaina

Sun, 06 Jul 2003 15:29:32 GMT

I got the greatest guy in Pembroke! I like him so much and I think we'll be together a long time! We've been together a week now and we're still getting along well! OMG I'M sooo happy!! I havent been updating because I've been with him so much! Nothing else is new really!

Thu, 26 Jun 2003 17:36:08 GMT

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Magic Number	12
Job	Conservationist
Personality	Sunny Day
Temperament	A Yo-Yo
Sexual	Straight
Likely To Win	The World Cup
Me - In A Word	Compassionate
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Thu, 26 Jun 2003 17:31:05 GMT

This weather is aweful. Greenhouse effect. So much shit has been going on lately. Grad's friday gunna get wasted in celebration! Got dumped a week or so ago, but met a nice boy the other night. His name is Jamie. He knows Timmy, then again who doesn't Timmy know? Hanging out at Riverside Park a lot, love that place, always did, even last summer. Going swimming with Joel a lot. Haven't seen Helen lately, dont know where she's been ahh shit reminds me I gotta cal her. fuck I hope I get a hold of her or else i am going to go to the bar friday, and I'm scared but it might be fun. I like Jamie.

Fri, 20 Jun 2003 04:16:03 GMT

Life's looking down right now.

In that case; time for a drink.

Thu, 12 Jun 2003 22:20:11 GMT

Nothing much to write about. Markus is moving tommorow :( that really sucks...no more stafford friend, I need to find one. Well, going camping second weekend of July I hope that turns out good, we're going in Helen's cottage on her island.this should be fun, I am going to get fucking plastered. Barry is coming up this weekend, maybe I should forgive him so I can get some love and attention from him. Things with Scott and I are kinda rocky. Well, maybe its just me. But anyways Helen and Duane should be here soon, I'll see if they have any single mingly friends.

Wed, 04 Jun 2003 03:55:57 GMT

Things have been good. Had an alright day, pretty sociable actually! Scott seemed to be in a bad mood today, I duno maybe he was maybe he wasn't I am waiting for his call right now as I'm tying up the net. Oh well. Tommorow I am gunna have him over for dinner, and I'm cooking.

Art show is Friday. Can't wait to put up my art but I guess I need to buy hooks or something to hang it up? I dont know haha. I also am supposed to make cookies. Yeah right, suck my ass.

On another note, I am thinking about taking grade 12 photography just for the sake of being able to take more pictures. But I'm not sure yet. I can't rememebr my other class I signed up for. Shitty eh...

So I found a dead butterfly today. I am going to start a specimen collection and he'll be my first one. He's really pretty, just dead. I canot wait to develop my pictures tommorow! I am excited!

Sat, 24 May 2003 15:21:03 GMT

Hopefully get to see Scott today! Gotta call the lad up and see what he's doin. I really need to eat something and shower. I am a complete dirt. Does anyone remember at camp? I was a dirt then too haha. Still am, so today I am going to be clean!

Well thanks God for French tunes, I downloaded some wicked ass French music. Kate Ryan - Desenchantee !!

Fri, 23 May 2003 19:23:42 GMT

"This is my ex girlfriend (hands me a photo)"

Oh she has such pretty eyes.... such pretty hair.....such a pretty dress SUCH A PRETTY MEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!

" (swipes the picture back) what the hell was that all about?"

hahaha, I don't know.... Got any chippies?

"I can't understand you, I'm still trying to figure you out"

(grin) goodluck

I Can't Be Held Responsible

Fri, 23 May 2003 19:18:58 GMT

Having a good day today. This past week has been amazing. I am so happy with Scott, he just seems so right. I really love hotdogs, especially whenever you have like a summer barbeque in the backyard right at dusk, and eat ketchup chippies and such. He said he'd have a hot dog party with me if I came to one of his parties. I'm still thinking though, his friends I have never met however I guess I am just a little anti social. Jessica Robinson is such a loser, omg I wish she'd rot her and Sara Edwards make a good pair, because they're both annoying. I saw them while delivering my papers, and they just had to brag they were drinking.

I need to go shopping. I got a nice chunk of money. I know I will save most of it, but I do want a new shirt and jacket and maybe even some hair dye again would be nice. I need one more person to sign the documents and then I can send them in. I can't wait...

Mon, 19 May 2003 20:54:13 GMT

I had a nice picnic in the park today with Scotty! Oh wowie was it ever nice~UNTIL THESE FUCKING LITTLE KIDS CAME AND WE HAD TO LEAVE! Then he took me to all these nature paths and places AND I GOT BIT BY A FUCKING MISQUITO NOW I PROBABLY HAVE WESTNILE but it was so nice because the sun was shining so I wore my nice little mini skirt and tank top and I was warm UNTIL IT GOT FUCKING CLOUDY AND COLD THEN I GOT 9 INCH NIPONS but no.... it was good, we went to the tower but when we got there we discovered it was TORN DOWN BY THE MUNICIPALITY FUCK. haha Okay enough with that you get the point! Movie. Saturday. His basement. Yum.

Mon, 12 May 2003 23:00:58 GMT

"So what do you like to do in your spare time?"

SPELLING

"Anything other than spelling?"

Thinking about, SPELLING

Sun, 11 May 2003 23:18:19 GMT

"I hate to do this Jim, but you're fired!"

OH YA? You may fire me now, but SURE ENOUGH..

"here it comes..."

As sure as I'm standing here, you'll regret this. Because my friend, I - WILL - SEE - YOU - IN...*croak*

"Oh my God! Well what do you think he was going to say?"
"We'll never know"

Once again, I will be laughing all the way to the bank.

Fri, 09 May 2003 04:08:42 GMT

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Sun, 04 May 2003 21:54:48 GMT

So I have been having a good day today. I went for a walk in the woods, got all kinds of pop cans, found a nice screw driver, a popples glass (not broken) and 3 golf balls. I like it out there I could walk for miles out in the woods. Once again I am a church skipper. I don't care. I am supposed to be going out tonight, don't know if I will though I'm kinda nervous and shy and scared, dont know the guy very well. I hungout with Peregrine lastnight again, God he's awesome. I wish he didnt work all the time, then we could hangout more often.

Tue, 29 Apr 2003 21:37:13 GMT

I have had a crap day. I am probably just deprived of my sleep however I am getting that heart sinking feeling. I've had it for most of the day. I just wish I had someone close. Its not fair how they come and go, and others have solid friends for many many years. Maybe a day off school tommorow will do me some good.

Sun, 27 Apr 2003 17:35:58 GMT

I have been having a wonderful day! I just got home from Petawawa. I'm a church skipper but I had more fun by myself anyways! I went to the Catwalk and found a nice chunk of quartz crystal, and a nice smooth rock. I thoguth a lot too, and some people said hi to me. I was following a Canada goose around, and I saw a Mallard and a morning dove as well. Markus and Helen hungout lastnight, apparently they're going to hangout today as well. I am glad I have helped him make friends! They probably get along better anyways.

Lastnight was friggen good! Peregrine is really cool. He thought I was a little strange though because I didn't find him strange. I love his car its older and longer. I hope he likes me, cause I think he's attractive. He is a little old though but he sure doesn't act it!!! Oh hell what am I talking about. I'll never find anyone good here. The best I ever had was Barry, and he moved away. Boo-hoo cry me a river.

Sat, 26 Apr 2003 04:26:45 GMT

Had a goodnight tonight!
Hungout with Maruks, talked to Helen and went to Mark's party. I was the only one that showed up, felt kinda bad!! Marus is cool, he's not as bad as I thought yesterday or the day before. No, no he's not bad at all. Helene and him are getting togetehr tommorow I hope they have fun!! I also hope he doesnt go to my school next year he may not like me after that. I'm not what he would sconsider cool buthey dont expect the friendship to last long anyways. Maybe it will, I dunno!! Point is, I dont want him to be lonely, he sayshe's not but whatever he's only human. Tommorow I'm going with Peregrine to the show, nervous as hell but I hope it goes good!

Thu, 24 Apr 2003 22:01:41 GMT

I had such a bad day yesterday. OMG it was aweful. First I woke up extra early tomake a music tape, only forit to get chewed 5 minutes later in the car cassette player. It even got stuk so I couldnt get it back. Then I went to school and Allan wasn't there. That also sucked ass. Then my film didnt develop AT ALL all my pictures of Erik, Barry and myself were gone. Fuck. THEN Markus called me and asked me to meet him at the park. He clmained he was hot. He is wrong he is sooo ugly! Yuck! I hope Helen hangsout with him cause I dont wanna be this guy's friend. Hes too wild and full of drugs and crime for me. Then I didnt even get to talk to Erik because I was so upset over my whole day, I just wanted sleep.

But there was one good part! I talked to Peregrine on the phone. He's really nice, I asked him to hangout with me next week, go see a movie or something I'm not sure! (that's the one I stalked at the mall the other day). He's a nice guy, I hope he comes online soon. Right now I'm in pain, very sore back, and also I was hungry but I just ate. Not a good day today really, nothing to say about it.

I'm A Stalker!

Wed, 23 Apr 2003 02:27:01 GMT

So I met this guy on the net a few months ago named Allan. Cool guy, lives out in Douglas ( for those of you who don't know the area, its outside of Pembroke 30min away). He had sent me some pictures and such, so I knew what he looked like. Well, it just so happens that afterschool I went to the mall and just as I got off the phone with my mom, I turned around to see this shorter guy, with the same haircut walk into A&p. I followed him, cause I had this strange vibe. I went in and watched where he went, and studied him for about 10 minutes. OMG It was him! Had never met him before or laid eyes on him until now! I memorized what he was wearing.....brown jacket, dark blue tshirt, black pants, and that gold cross around hisneck. BINGO. I had been staring at him, hoping he'd look up, and if he did should I say hi? Fuck no. I'm too shy just yet. I wanted to go up though and say "Allan is that you?" But no.....for I have not guts!

So when I got home I informed him that I had stalked him, and he said he had noticed me but I believe that wasnt true, because he never once looked at me. But oh well! I thought it was cool, but he was a little sad I did not go say hi. Next time I will! He's pretty cute!

God Damn Telephone!

Tue, 22 Apr 2003 02:41:42 GMT

Feel pretty shitty right now, Barry came home for the weekend and we hungout today. It was great and all, but then he said he'd call me when I got home and we could do something special tonight. Guess what? My phone was left off the hook so I probably missed him call. FUCK. No special something for me! He was really great today! Smiley, bouncy, funny as hell too! He's back May 24 weekend andI'm looking forward to that!

Sun, 06 Apr 2003 05:11:04 GMT

So I had a great day today. I woke up early, around 9:30 and called Vanessa. I was supposed to go to her farm today and do paper mache balloons for an art project. But it ends up we got piles of snow so we decided to cancel. So I stayed awake, and painted. My picture is coming along well, beautiful actually, I will have a hard time giving it up when its near completion but I better get used to it. The paper its on is shit. Stupid Miss Fichser. Or whatever her name is.

It ends up I'm going to have 2 spares now cause I'm failing art big time and there's no point in staying in it. Yes, I know. What moron can fail art? Its University level. All abstract. All retarded shit. The writing part of the piece is worth more than ANY of your work combined. Plus we are assigned 4 projects at a time, completed a test ( which I failed since I didnt have my answers word-for-word like her little suck ups) not to mention a final art work show at the end of the year that you MUST do or else you will fail, because its required. You have to bring all your artwork afterschool whether you like it or not and set it up for a display for others to see and ruin. And dont forget if you dont suck up to the teacher she wont pass you because she doesnt know your intentions. Fucking bitch, how am I supposed to when she walks right by my whole table/group without even giving us a chance? My whole table, with the exception of Amy, is failing the class.

So i was making Easter cards in her room during my spare and she said

"Elaina, you know, you are not passing this course"

"At all?"

"No"
(stumped look on my face) "Not even my painting?"

"Well, your written work is worth more than your painting, and you havent completed that. But You painting also isnt worth a passing mark."

(trying to hold in my anger) "Well, I dont care, I like it!"

"Well, thats good. But I dont see what you intend to do about this. The only suggestions I have is for you and Vanessa to write up and start an information file on your sculpture. You also don't communicate with me enough."

"How so?"

"You dont tell me where you're going with things"

"I do so, I told you my intentions for it, I just didnt repeat myself EVERYDAY like most people do. Is that what you want?"

(glares at me) "You need equal amounts of input along with equal amounts of output"

"Well, I'm sorry but I'm not that kind of a person to ramble on and on about my work. I want people to figure it out."

"Thats not good, you should be able to talk about it more. Anyways I have to go grab something downstairs, if you leave, shut the door."

I was insulted but I held it in until I got home. When the teacher left the room I stole some art paper from her to paint when I got home. I can't believe the bullshit in that class. Amy doesnt even follow instructions and she is passing. Also, its worse than a religion class. I see anyways. Everyone is so fucking opinionated and know one knows the right answers to ANYTHING. The teacher will also get the class to critique people's work individually, just to beat up people she doesnt like. She wont say anything negative about her suck up's work, ust everyone else. I hate that. Oh well, I am happy I will have another spare!!

That means, during my spares I can workout, and also do homework on the other one! Or even come to school later! It will also make my average higher since I'll only have 2 classes. But I will have to come back for perhaps 2 semesters next year, which I really dont want. But oh well, what can you do eh? God damnit, it makes me mad.Its too late to sign up for anything else too.

So, other than that, I went shopping today and bought all kinds of candy and food, and art brushes and also some gloss that I needed.I have a whole bunch of photography I need to start working on soon. Its due monday but I'm handing it in Tuesday. I dont care anymore. I'm always handing it in on time, and then you get these burnouts who wait so long and get the same marks. She can wait a day too. My photography teacher is a bitch too. But I wont get into that...

Tommorow I have no plans. Just taking it as it comes along. I have not heard from Joel in a while, I wonder how things in his relationship are going? God everyone's breaking up around me. Its insane, it seems like no one is normal anymore. I only find true hapiness in certain things.

One: when I am alone, walking, thinking, sleeping...

Two: When I am doing art, painting, drawing...singing, printing pictures even

Three: When I am with Pleistarchos... talking, fantasizing

Thats about it really. Thats all thats been making me happy lately. With all the snow I've felt miserable again, trapped in my house. I hate winters. I cant go anywhere or do anything I want. I miss the sun, the long grass, and warmth.

Wed, 26 Mar 2003 22:49:23 GMT

I just realized today that I am a good liar/actress/deceiver. I could always use my strengths to shadow my real self and go in disguise. I'm starting to turn back into the old me again, and thats not good. So I have been walking home and eating right. But I mean disguise as in, changing wardrobes and personalities to fit with the wardrobes. I am going to try that this summer. I'm not the same with everyone, I also realized that. I act diferent around (example) Allan than I do Erik. Or, I act different around Joel than I do new people. I should become Mary for a while. I think I'll meet someone new and be Mary. Oh by the way, I told Anya off. She won't be back for a while. If you are wondering why just ask, unless you don't know what I'm talking about; then you weren't meant to know.

Fri, 21 Mar 2003 06:03:00 GMT

I live in a bubble. I dont watch tv so I can't really be subjected to reality.
But it makes me sad, I'm trying to get it off my mind.
Nonsense, the Earth is flat.

Good day

Tue, 04 Mar 2003 23:20:35 GMT

I had a good day today! Everything went swell, but my photography didnt' quite workout *frown* I'm behind now, so I dont know if I wil have enough time to finish up! I hope I do! Nothing was turning out! I really need to hussle my ass tommorow and get it done! I gotta do papers soon but I'll probably post more later. I think I'm getting a bit better I havent sneezed today, and my nose isnt TOO stuffed and I actually dont sound like a 5 year old child now. I hope I get better fast! I gotta come home and sleep, and then eat meat and chicken and get better! I had chicken noodle soup again today at lunch, it was GOOD!! My math teacher also let me out to do a photo shoot with Amy and Allan, it was quite funny except Amy has weird ideas. I reallt didn't like getting close to Allan for some of them. But on others it was funny! Anyways better go now!!